sunrise

Written for 10_letters

Dear Orli

I got up early this morning before the sun came up. I couldn't sleep. I was thinking too much about how much my life has changed in the past few months. I got up and got dressed and went for a walk on the beach.

I miss you. That's one thing I know for certain. I love you. That's another. What I haven't been sure about is whether or not I can completely give myself to you. I've had other relationships that have scared me. But I threw myself into them because I was sure they would work. I've been wrong so much. It scares me.

I was sitting on the sand when the sun came up this morning. I watched the sun light up the sky and it was so beautiful it almost broke my heart. The first thing I thought was 'I wish Orli was here' and that made me cry. That's how much I miss you. I want to come home. I already told Will that. But I want you to know that I want to come home so I can see every sunrise with you.

love
Shy