shyguy | Oct. 6th, 2008

September 18

"Are you excited?"

Shy nodded at the question. How could he not be? But he didn't want to appear to be too excited for fear that Kevin would get offended and change his mind.

"I am, too," Kevin admitted with a grin. "I haven't been able to stop thinking about Will since we broke up. I used to be so angry with him but I just want to be with him, now. I think it's time I got the chance to make things up to him."

"I'm glad you'll get to do that," Shy said, resting his head on Kevin's shoulder. Kevin had insisted they be together one more time before he took Shy back home, and Shy found it easier if he didn't protest.

"Are you really going to miss me?" Kevin asked, gently playing with Shy's hair.

"Uh huh." It was the truth. In some sick way Shy was going to miss him. He was going to have to get used to not depending on Kevin for everything, and he knew he'd be thinking about the man long after he was gone from his life. As horribly terrified as Kevin had made him feel, he'd also made him feel cared for and ridiculously relieved to see him on the days Kevin would be gone for hours at a time.

"Good. I'm going to miss you, too." Kevin kissed the top of Shy's head, then gave him a soft pat on his backside. "We'd better get dressed."

Shy nodded and got up. When he headed for the bathroom, Kevin stopped him.

"Where are you going?"

"To take a shower."

"Don't." Kevin stood up and put his hands on Shy's shoulders, turning him around to face him. "Please."

Shy looked up at him, his brown eyes wide with confusion. "Why not?"

"I want Orlando to know I was with you before I gave you back to him."

Shy's eyes darkened and he shook his head. "Kevin, why do--"

Kevin gripped Shy's throat, cutting him off. "He needs to know how it feels to have someone he loves taken away from him. He needs to know you were mine the entire time I had you here. Don't ruin this for me, sweetheart," he whispered, kissing him before letting him go. "Get dressed. Wait down here and I'll come get you when it's time."

Lowering his head, Shy whispered, "Okay."

"And if you cross me," Kevin added, brushing his lips over Shy's ear, "I'll kill Orlando and keep you with me and Will."

"I won't cross you," Shy said, stilling looking down at the floor. He knew he was going to break the moment he saw Orlando again, but if he angered Kevin, he'd never get to see his husband again. Even worse, he knew that Kevin would carry out the threat he'd just made. The thought of being responsible for any harm coming to Orlando was enough to make him fall into line.

"All right." Kevin kissed his forehead. "I'm gonna go get cleaned up for Will. I don't want you all over me when we're reunited," he chuckled. "But after that, we're good to go."

Shy wasn't going to say anything about how unfair Kevin was being. It would be stupid to point that out after everything he'd been through with the man, but this last slight and chance to make him feel like shit really got to him. For the first time since he and Kevin had come face to face, Shy didn't completely fear him. He just hated him.