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Dear Tom,
I hope you don't mind me writing you. I've been thinking about our plan to be nothing more than friends and I wanted to let you know a few things I think about that. It's for the best. When I talk to you and it seems like I'm doing OK or not saying certain things it's because I'm trying to make it easier on you so you'll move on. Telling you this now is probably the worse thing I can do but I have to be honest. If we'd met first I might have stayed with you so I wouldn't be alone. But I met Orlando first. I fell in love with him first. I completely lost my heart to him and I can't imagine being without him without it breaking my heart.
I'm a really selfish man. I'd be with you if it meant not having to make any kind of sacrifice. And leaving Orli would be a sacrifice I'm not willing to make. You need to know that the guy you fell for doesn't exist. I just wanted to see if I could get another bloke to like me. I never thought you'd be that guy. You gave up so much and I didn't know how to tell you that it was going to be for nothing. I knew that I was going back to Orli but I just wanted one fling before I did. I think I might have mixed up the way I felt having sex with you with being in love. I should have realised that sooner and saved you all this hassle. Saved myself and Orli all this worry too. I don't think anyone could make me as happy as Orlando and this is my life now. I made the right choice.
Thanks for everything and for loving me but it's time you stopped. I'm never going to be able to return your feelings the way you'd like. Falling for you was an accident and it shouldn't have happened. I'm realising that now and I thought you should know. There's no point in me thinking I have feelings for you if nothing's going to come of it. I hope you find someone new soon and forget about me. You deserve someone who'll not make you come in second place.
Take care.
Your friend,
Shy
Shy reread the letter, wondering if it sounded convincing enough. Everything he'd said about Orlando was true, but he'd mixed in some lies about his feelings for Tom. If he was going to make things easier for the other man, he was going to have to drive him away even at the risk of making him hate him. No matter how much it hurt, Shy knew it was the right thing to do.
10_lettersDear Tom,
I hope you don't mind me writing you. I've been thinking about our plan to be nothing more than friends and I wanted to let you know a few things I think about that. It's for the best. When I talk to you and it seems like I'm doing OK or not saying certain things it's because I'm trying to make it easier on you so you'll move on. Telling you this now is probably the worse thing I can do but I have to be honest. If we'd met first I might have stayed with you so I wouldn't be alone. But I met Orlando first. I fell in love with him first. I completely lost my heart to him and I can't imagine being without him without it breaking my heart.
I'm a really selfish man. I'd be with you if it meant not having to make any kind of sacrifice. And leaving Orli would be a sacrifice I'm not willing to make. You need to know that the guy you fell for doesn't exist. I just wanted to see if I could get another bloke to like me. I never thought you'd be that guy. You gave up so much and I didn't know how to tell you that it was going to be for nothing. I knew that I was going back to Orli but I just wanted one fling before I did. I think I might have mixed up the way I felt having sex with you with being in love. I should have realised that sooner and saved you all this hassle. Saved myself and Orli all this worry too. I don't think anyone could make me as happy as Orlando and this is my life now. I made the right choice.
Thanks for everything and for loving me but it's time you stopped. I'm never going to be able to return your feelings the way you'd like. Falling for you was an accident and it shouldn't have happened. I'm realising that now and I thought you should know. There's no point in me thinking I have feelings for you if nothing's going to come of it. I hope you find someone new soon and forget about me. You deserve someone who'll not make you come in second place.
Take care.
Your friend,
Shy
Shy reread the letter, wondering if it sounded convincing enough. Everything he'd said about Orlando was true, but he'd mixed in some lies about his feelings for Tom. If he was going to make things easier for the other man, he was going to have to drive him away even at the risk of making him hate him. No matter how much it hurt, Shy knew it was the right thing to do.
