what I'm afraid of

Written for theatrical_muse

Haven't thought much about this. Mainly because I don't really want to, you know? Who wants to constantly think about what they're afraid of? Other than crazy people, I mean. And they don't even want to do it, which is probably what makes them crazy if you think about it.

Right.

I suppose I'm afraid of the normal stuff a lot of people might be - poisonous spiders, snakes and plants, vicious animals and the like. And I don't like the clown doll in that ghost movie. But the thing I'm really afraid of is getting close to someone again. The last time I did that, I ended up ruining a lot of lives, including my own. It's hard to get over something like that. I'd rather fall off a building than fall in love with someone. At least with the first thing I'd only end up hurting myself. Falling in love is the most dangerous thing I can think of doing. I can't go through that again. I just can't.