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Written for theatrical_muse

I grew up in a beautiful place. I used to take a lot of pictures of my friends, my mum, my girlfriend. But I didn't really take that many of the scenery, of the island itself. I think I figured I'd be there for the rest of my life so there wasn't really any point in taking a picture of stuff like the water I'd see every day, you know?

Since I've moved to the States, I miss a lot of home. Seeing pictures on the internet or in books just isn't the same. I wish I had my own pictures. I'm not sure if this is a good enough answer, but there haven't really been any other times I've wished I'd had a camera with me. The pathetic thing is I had the damn camera with me. I just didn't use it the way I should have.

All this holiday garbage is making me homesick. I don't celebrate Thanksgiving, obviously, but it's the family gathering part that's making me sad. I miss my mother. I miss my home. I miss my oldest friends. Christmas is going to be godawful, I know it.

If only I'd appreciated what I had when I actually had it.