One wish

Do you ever think about what you would change if you could?

All the time. I don't think I'd be human if I didn't.

And what would that be?

I wouldn't have fallen asleep. I wouldn't have gotten caught leaving her room. Sometimes I wish...

What do you wish for, Shy?

Sometimes I wish I could go back to the time before I ever met her. Back to the time when she was just the boss's daughter and I didn't think I'd have a chance with her. All I did was ruin her life by being with her.

And what about your own life?

What about it?

Was it ruined because of your relationship with her?

I loved her, you know? I still do. I can't blame her for what happened. I want to, but I know I can't. I wish I could make things right, but I know I'll never be able to do that. I'll never be able to go back.

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it's all new

I don't know if this is a good idea. I hate computers. I don't see the point in them really. Takes me forever to type a few words. Mum would probably like I'm on this thing still learning. It would appeal to the teacher part of her. The mother part of her would want me to contact her I know. Can't do that yet.

I'm working and in my own place. This thing was handed down to me from my boss. He said I need to join the 21st century. Told me about this place so I can "meet new people." I'm not someone who should meet anyone new if you ask me. I just want to live my new life and try to forget my old one.

messing around

I like this thing where I can change how my new journal looks. Not bad for someone who's still figuring everything out, eh?